Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I didn't know this.


No one told me how weird this phase of life would be- the whole graduated from college, looking for jobs/trying to find out what I really want to do with my life.

I really don't know how else to explain it except that it is weird indeed. I don't feel any older than I did graduating from high school yet the reality is... I am. Plus, not only am I older, but I have this weight of a degree on my shoulders which means I need to do something better than what is required of a high school student.

I know, it makes sense and I know that having a degree is a privilege of which I am very thankful for. It is just hard at the moment to look ahead and see nothing. There is a part to it that is thrilling and exciting, but then there is a part of me that says, "I have no idea what I am doing" which feels scary and uncontrollable.

I am searching. I am looking. I will seek and hopefully I will find...something.

Until then, I will keep on keeping on. Something will turn up. I have faith.

OR I'll just pack up and move to Florida. Life's short, right?!

Oh but sidenote: The other night I was watching the MTV Movie awards and of course, best kiss went to Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. But their acceptance was lame. However, a few years back when Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling received the award...their acceptance of the award was awesome and made me smile. Check it out. I don't know which is better, this kiss or the one on the actual movie. Or maybe I am just a little in love with Ryan Gosling (he is a musician too, you know?)

1 comment:

  1. Yep. I feel ya. Try stacking 2 Master's degrees on your shoulders and STILL not knowing. Talk about pressure. Can we just fast forward our lives to 40 and see what we are doing and where we ended up?!


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