I didn't know this.

Guys.

No one told me how weird this phase of life would be- the whole graduated from college, looking for jobs/trying to find out what I really want to do with my life.

I really don't know how else to explain it except that it is weird indeed. I don't feel any older than I did graduating from high school yet the reality is... I am. Plus, not only am I older, but I have this weight of a degree on my shoulders which means I need to do something better than what is required of a high school student.

I know, it makes sense and I know that having a degree is a privilege of which I am very thankful for. It is just hard at the moment to look ahead and see nothing. There is a part to it that is thrilling and exciting, but then there is a part of me that says, "I have no idea what I am doing" which feels scary and uncontrollable.

I am searching. I am looking. I will seek and hopefully I will find...something.

Until then, I will keep on keeping on. Something will turn up. I have faith.

OR I'll just pack up and move to Florida. Life's short, right?!

Oh but sidenote: The other night I was watching the MTV Movie awards and of course, best kiss went to Robert Pattinson and Kristen Stewart. But their acceptance was lame. However, a few years back when Rachel McAdams and Ryan Gosling received the award...their acceptance of the award was awesome and made me smile. Check it out. I don't know which is better, this kiss or the one on the actual movie. Or maybe I am just a little in love with Ryan Gosling (he is a musician too, you know?)